“When this old world starts getting me down
And people are just too much for me to face
I climb way up to the top of the stairs
And all my cares just drift right into space”
There are very few places or things that can calm my mind. Very few things that allow my mind to settle and allow all the stresses or worries of the world disappear. I am a well known over thinker as well as someone who thinks of every what if. With work I am always “on” and I always am answering questions or solving problems or thinking when It comes to my personal life… I don’t want to think. I don’t want to decide what restaurant to eat at, I don’t want to decide where we’re going on vacation or plan vacation! So after a stressful day or not eh weekends I like to “escape”
- Snuggled on the couch watching Reality TV – Yes i’m talking Kardashians!! My step dad used to make fun of me so much, but it gets me out of my own head and focused on other people’s problems. Even if they are losing $50K diamond earrings in the ocean (okay Kim) I can’t watch for hours but its nice to watch an hour before bed to get my mind off the day!
- The beach… when I need to escape after a long crazy day walking the beach or watching the waves crash or the sunset just always gets me to relax. It forces my body to relax and my mind to just focus on the present moment.
- Fire Island or Cape Cod will have the same effect.
- I love a chilly fall almost winter day on the beach. The cool crisp air and the sound of the waves. Its my happy place and where i feel safe.
- The gym. The gym keeps me sane. It is my cure all. If i’m cranky, mad, sad just not feeling good I go to the gym. Even if I don’t want to, i’lll force myself to at least go and walk which then usually turns into a full workout haha. But the gym clears my head and allows to me to focus on my body and not my mind. The gym also helps with my anxiety and keeping me level headed.
- If it gets really bad… I go to the woods. Driving through the mountains or windy roads with huge trees on either side completely relaxes me. Takes me back to when I was a kid and didn’t have the pressure of the world or any cares in the world. I was just me and whenever I am hiking in the woods or driving upstate NY or VT I instantly go back to that feeling. That is home to me and completely puts everything else on the back burner and I can relax and forget the world
The other day I went for a drive, no destination in mind. But like always I ended up at the beach. I walked for a little while and then sat down in the sand and just stared out at the ocean and watched the waves. I pulled out my phone and opened the notes section and didn’t think, I just wrote down how I was feeling and whatever thoughts came to mind… Here is what came out of it….
As I sit here on the beach the cool breeze touching my face the smell of salt water my toes buried in the sand to find some sense of warmth I think about the future and what it is that I really want out of life. I’ve always talked about starting a blog and never actually take the time to do it. I think the biggest problem is that I get so caught up in my day that when inspiration hits it is quickly taken away by an email or a phone call or a meeting. So I sit here on the beach feeling inspired. My phone is on air plane mode so I can’t be disturbed and I’m writing my first blog entry into what will become my journey. I don’t know what the future holds for me and I am at a fork in the road where I can stay on the same familiar path and continue on with my comfort level or I can take a risk (big risk) and leave everything for a new adventure. It sounds terrifying to someone who plans every second of their day and is constantly trying to analyze every action. But there is no sense is sticking with what is familiar. I know the pain the challenges the stress the anxiety of this path as well as the joys and happiness but there has to be more. Right now I feel as though I am merely existing I’m not living life to the fullest and I feel stuck. I am not growing as an individual because I am not in the environment in which I am supposed to grow. This chapter of my life is ending and it is time to turn the page and see what happens.
I’m choosing to take the road less traveled and explore. I don’t want to look back on life and think wow I wish I had explored opening my own business living in a new unfamiliar place where I know no one and can be whoever I want to be. I have been molded by so many people that have come and gone in my life and not enough by the people that have remained constant in my life. – more on that to come don’t worry. I’m ready to start down the path I’m calling the left path as I’m right handed and that is where my comfort level is. Im taking the left and I’ll see where I end up. It definitely can’t get worse. Life has a funny way of falling into place when you least expect it
It is so rare in this world to find a place where you can sit in silence and genuinely enjoy yourself. I’m reminded of the movie friends w benefits where she is laying on the rooftop in the busy city of New York and there is no cell phone reception and she lays on the roof staring at the stars. The beach is my rooftop. I can sit and listen to the waves crash for hours. Walk the beach on the edge of where the water meets the sand. Watch the seagulls fly overheard and the little birds that I have no idea the name of scurry as the waves come closer.
I love the beach when it seems no one else does.
Don’t get me wrong I love laying on the beach soaking in the sun but when it’s vacant except for the lonely surfer the fisherman and the one man walking his dog… that is when I love the beach. When it’s just the waves crashing against the shore. It’s quiet and I can be alone with my thoughts and my dreams. It’s simple but it’s my happy place and my rooftop. The beach just makes sense. All the stress and worries of the world disappear. I’m calm I’m happy and I could live in those moments forever.
If you have not found your happy place I urge you to explore visit as many places as possible. The place where you fee most comfortable alone. That is one of the greatest feelings in the world. If you’re able go to your rooftop once a day. If that’s not possible go at least 3 times a week. I cannot begin to tell you the impact it will have on your life. Enjoy every moment take it all in observe everything and capture it in your memory forever.
Everything is alright… up on the roof.